In this episode, the series protagonist struggles with his personal philosophy of pacifism versus the necessity of violence to protect his friends. The title itself is a direct quote from Morgan, explaining his history of mental instability: "I lose people, and then I lose myself" . Key Plot Features

The phrase is the title of the 16th episode of Fear the Walking Dead (Season 4 finale), which originally aired on September 30, 2018. Episode Overview

Morgan discovers that ethanol is the antidote to antifreeze poisoning. He saves the group by bringing them a truckload of "Augie’s Ale".

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Morgan finds Martha, who has been bitten by a walker. She attempts to force him to kill her to prove that he is "weak," but he eventually kills her reanimated self after she dies from infection.