There is a bitter tension between the desire to speak and the reality of silence. The narrator mentions "screaming in their head" for silence to kill the other person, yet they save their tears for someone who might actually deserve the pain.
The protagonist admitted to "leaving the door cracked" because hope is the last thing to die, even though they aren't even sure what the love they are looking for actually looks like anymore. #8 Spike - Nimic
There is a heavy sense of lost time. He notes that even one more day of her presence barely matters compared to the vast amount of time he will spend missing her. There is a bitter tension between the desire
He dismisses the idea of "remaining friends" as just another story people tell themselves to feel better about losing what they once had. There is a heavy sense of lost time